Hey @ENKELI
I know you're not necessarily looking for a reply, but reading through this it does sound really overwhelming. I'm not going to offer any suggestions, because I know how frustrating that is when it's not what you want or need at the time.
I just want to say I'm here with you, and I see the strength it must be taking to get through each day right now. I hope that venting here helped, even if it's just a little bit
