Morning Check-in

[avant-garde]

I am too angry to sleep

I had someone make a joke today about how I'll be rolling in it when I get into this government house with how much the government payment actually is.

They'll never understand.

[MissinTooth]

Morning @avant-garde I hope you managed to get some rest last night. 

No, people will never understand until they've been placed into a situation where they're experiencing homelessness. The uncertainty, the fear, the powerlessness is real and leaves a mark. 

I've found sometimes that people make comments like that, when they don't know what to say. 

[avant-garde]

@MissinTooth 

The government payment isn't much and for them to say that I'd be rolling in it?!? Sarcasm is the lowest form of humour. 

Did eventually sleep. I'll be glad to move and not have the loud volume and heavy footsteps above me.

[avant-garde]

Waking up angry isn't fun, especially when that anger is justified. 

I finished going through my storage unit and I'm seeing things that got left behind... considered unimportant... like a $130 vacuum cleaner... a brand new set of expensive sheets and towels that I got for Christmas in 2023... because they thought they were doing me a favour... that I had too much stuff... that they didn't think and just threw it all in the skip bin... I remember finding it when I dropped by... I remember the anger and the heartbreak... if this is help, I didn't want them helping me... to wake up feeling that again...

[Ru-bee]

@avant-garde waking up angry isn't a pleasant way to start the day. To he honest I feel frustrated just reading this! I can't understand that thinking as if they know what's better for you. Also how wasteful just to throw those things away!

Was this something that just happened recently?

[avant-garde]

@Ru-bee 

No it was when I first became homeless march last year

I wrote this not long after it happened 

"T, J & E were there moving and packing things until past 5pm and then B & S2 came and moved what they could to the storage unit, the rest they threw in the skip bin.

I mean we're talking my clothes, my bedding, my cleaning supplies, my dvd player, my dish rack, my laundry stuff, my shelving unit, all my dvd's as well, we're talking ALL THE THINGS THAT ACTUALLY MATTER!!!

All it does is show me how unimportant I am, I mean why do I even bother with a church of socialites where they can afford to get new mixers, get new bowls, get new coffee grinders, get new dish racks, replace DVDs."

It just hit all afresh with having finished going through the storage unit...

[Ru-bee]

It's clear how painful those memories still are @avant-garde which is completely understandable, especially with your recent visit to your storage unit bringing them to the front again.

I'm so sorry that this made you feel unimportant. It's such a thoughtless thing for them to have done

Where you visiting the storage unit in preparation for moving into your new housing? I've been following along a bit with it but wanted to check in on how you're feeling about it? Still uneasy?

[avant-garde]

@Ru-bee 

I had 2 storage units that a friend of mine was paying for the smaller one, she gave me a deadline to have it sorted and empty by, I finished a month early, I still have my bigger one.

It's having the sorting done that I can take stock

It still hurts a lot

[Journeygirl]

Hi everyone, 

I just joined this morning and realized that I should have joined up long ago because sometimes I do feel quite isolated and alone

My three things I can see my guitar and my books and the sun shining through the crystals that hang in the window filling my lounge room with little rainbows 

I can hear the some crows calling to each other, the clock on the wall is ticking and a car driving past

I am moving my toes and my fingers and rolling my neck and shoulders in a slow way as it helps relieve the tight muscles

I am happy that resources like this exist and I will try to make it part of my daily routine

🌻

[rav3n]

hey @Journeygirl welcome to the forums! it's lovely to have you here 💙

if you're interested in grounding/calming exercises, there's this thread too: Wind-down Wednesdays - SANE Forums, i'll be posting a new one tomorrow 😊