My special place

[Snowie]

I can understand if something is going wrong for them @Ru-bee I also realise that she has other clients that she needs to think about too.

But it takes less than a minute to send a message saying, sorry can't make another time with you, see you when I get back. Or any form of communication. Even if it doesn't come from her, but her receptionist.

It's hard not to feel like a piece of discarded crap. Just makes my thought escalate.

[Snowie]

hearing you @Bow 

Mines over 100 and I'm just sitting on the couch.

I hope you hear tomorrow

[Ru-bee]

Yeah, you're right @Snowie it seems like something is really off, considering the reception staff haven't followed it up either! They should also be on top of the schedule, I actually worked as a psych receptionist for a while and that was a really important aspect of the job so it's both confusing and super frustrating to hear about this. 

I do agree with @Bow about contacting them if you're able. You shouldn't need to do it, but maybe some wires have been crossed and unfortunately it's resulted in this situation

Is there something that would help with your thoughts at the moment, maybe to slow them down a bit or stop them from escalating?

[Snowie]

It just makes me feel worthless @Ru-bee Not even worth a message or phone call.

You would think that they know they are dealing with peoples lives.

I have emailed my psych (last Sat) nothing

Things have already escalated

[Jynx]

@Snowie hey hun, this is really concerning to hear. I imagine it would feel like a reopening of that abandonment wound, and it hurts so so much. 

I know how scary it can be if things are escalating, do you have someone there with you to talk to about what's happening? 

[Snowie]

It does hurt @Jynx especially since she knew I wasn't going well to start with. Then this on top of it.

H has just gotten home. 

He knows about psych. Haven't told him what i've done

[Jynx]

@Snowie take your time hun, he's there for you when you're ready. Do you feel like it will help to talk to him about it all, or do you think you wanna throw yourself into some distractions or self-care or something?

Sending some very squishy hugs 🫂

[Snowie]

Thanks @Jynx 

I've shut down, I don't think I'd be able to get the words out.

No words left

Thanks anyway

[Jynx]

@Snowie I'm gonna flick you a lil email to check in okay hun? Keep an eye out 💜