My special place

[rav3n]

it's good you've got that option to see him while your psych is still away @Snowie but also completely valid to be overwhelmed about it. wanting to rest and shut everything out for a bit is such a human response when your brain’s this tired. has your sleep been poor lately?

[Snowie]

Thanks @Shaz51 💗

@rav3n my sleep has not been great. I go to sleep ok, it's just the staying asleep that is the problem. Then I struggle to get back to sleep.

Too much in my head, too many nightmares.

[rav3n]

i imagine those nightmares and difficult going back to sleep has made it more tiring to get through the day @Snowie i've recently been struggling with sleep too, was hoping the transition to colder weather would mean cosier/better sleep... waiting for that to happen!

hoping that you get better rest tonight 💗

[Snowie]

It does make it hard to function during the day @rav3n If only I could just stay in bed all day. Wishful thinking!

I try and keep to a bed time routine, but that doesn't seem to be helping either.

I'm sorry you are struggling with sleep too. I hope it improves for you sooner rather than later.

I've taken my night meds so am hoping sleep comes soon. At least a little.

[rav3n]

@Snowie oh that would be amazing if i could hide out in my bed all day. 

i hear ya, i've tried too and it's tough. thank you, hopefully we both see some improvements in our sleep soon. 💙

gotta go, good night!!

[Snowie]

So my psych cancelled appt. last Thursday for the Monday just gone. She said she'd be in contact with me asap. Still haven't heard anything, and it'll be a week tomorrow. Am I wrong to think that if someone says asap, it would at least only be a few days. Even if she hadn't the time, at least tell me that instead of leading me on. So instead of 6 weeks it has now gone to 8 weeks without seeing her.

I really thought she cared. Instead I am just a number, a paycheck, another statistic and nothing else. Just worthless. Why care when she doesn't. There is no point.

[Bow]

Sorry that is happening @Snowie  i agree asap is much sooner than that. If people say they are gonna do something then they need to follow through. We are having the same issue with a real estate. Said she would let us know yesterday morning. Nope. End of the day yesterday. Nope. Nothing today either. We are getting desperate!

can you call your psych? Or email? Maybe she forgot? 

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Snowie I'm so sorry that your psychs actions have made you feel that you're not important to her. While I can't know why she hasn't been able to prioritise having open communication with you, it's disappointing to hear that they haven't been getting back to. I'd be expecting a response way sooner if I heard I would be hearing back "ASAP". 

I get why this has you feeling as though your psych doesn't care, and I don't want to invalidate that response at all, though I do just gently want to suggest that there may be something going a bit wrong in your psych's schedule for this to be happening, especially if you've felt care from them before... it makes me wonder what's gone wrong for them that's caused this, and not at all that it's any reflection on you

[Snowie]

I'm sorry that you are going through all of that with the real estate agent @Bow Not having an answer must be really frustrating. Even if it's not overly great news, it is still better to know.

I have emailed her, but no response. I don't really expect one now. Don't want to get my hopes up high. Why should I care anyway. 

[Bow]

Super stressful @Snowie  was sitting on my bed this morning thinking about it and my watch started going off… said my heart rate was over 130 😩