I can’t cope

[Captain24]

I understand that but it would just be nice to fit in at work instead of not knowing what to say, when to say it or how to say it. I’m always direct and that doesn’t usually go down well. @Jynx 

Im not comfortable to unmask around her. It’s a wall I have built up for so long and don’t know how to take down. My other friend is the only person that I can be me with. 

[Captain24]

I’m going to try and get some sleep if my brain will shut down @tyme @Jynx. After not much sleep last night and a physical day today I’m hoping I can drop off and not wake up during the night wired. I need to get some decent sleep soon or I’ll go manic. 

I’ll respond tomorrow when I wake ups 

Sorry to leave

[Jynx]

No sorry needed @Captain24 glad to hear you're looking after yourself. Rest well and I'll chat to you next week 💜

[tyme]

Goodnight @Captain24 

Take it easy and I'll see you next time!

[Captain24]

So my head is still clearer but the procrastination is still there with things I’m not really keen on doing. I’ve done a fair bit this morning but stopping to have my dietitian appointment has slowed me down. I still need to shower and wash my hair and bath the dogs. Where do I find the motivation and stop procrastinating? 

My dietitian appointment was interesting. Apparently ADHD and ASD go hand in hand with eating disorders. 25% of ED sufferers have ASD. The medication I have started has reduced my appetite. ( edit if not appropriate) so I need to set reminders to eat. I forget to eat not ED related but med related. 

She is also supporting me while my psych is away which is really nice of her. Our appointments are not just on what to eat and when, she also focuses on my mental wellbeing. 

So far today is going well (well except for the procrastination!) I’m feeling the best I have felt in ages. I even slept well last night which hasn't been happening. Even the nights I sleep really badly, like 5-6 hours I’m still not waking up tired. I’m so glad I came of that other med. 

I hope this is recovery focused enough. 

[Captain24]

I’ve now done my list for today other than bath the dogs as I can’t catch Pix. It’ll have to wait until tomorrow. 

I’ve also done half of tomorrow’s list except for what has to be done tomorrow. 

This feeling good is great. 

[Ru-bee]

Just popping in here to say go @Captain24! Awesome to hear that you're feeling so positive today  

It's also great to hear that your dietician has been such a good support.

Overall sounding like a great start to the week

[Captain24]

It has been a good start to the week @Ru-bee. Yesterday was really good as well even on limited sleep. I feel the best I’ve felt in a long time. I go back to work on Wednesday after 4 weeks off so I’ll see how my week pans out after that! I’m hoping that it’s the new meds and that they help with my limiting the noise in my head and allow me to focus on my job. 

[Captain24]

 

[Captain24]

Feeling a little disheartened