I can’t cope

[Captain24]

It should be good. She has never been west of the Blue Mountains @Ru-bee. Just praying that this storm holds off until she is here! Not looking promising though.

[Jynx]

@Captain24 wow!! Yeah deep cleaning can be sooooo satisfying hey!! 

Aww hope things align for you both!! Storm is good cos maybe rain! Fingers crossed eh? 

Aww lucky pups!! Wish I was a dog sometimes cos chewing a bone seems SO SATISFYING 😂

Day has been ok, it's very hot here so mainly just hiding away in the air con lol. And drinking a giant iced coffee!! 😋

[Captain24]

We got a little bit of rain but not a bad storm. @Jynx. My friend made it before the rain. We have had dinner and just chatting. 

I have fully cleaned the kitchen after dinner. It does feel good. I just need to do all the windows and weed the garden hopefully I can do it next week. I need to keep it like this! Do you want me to come and do yours? When’s your inspection? 

Hot sounds so good. It was cold here today it didn’t reach 30! Lucky for air con for you! Glad it’s been ok. I hope you’re enjoying the iced coffee 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 aww bless!! Tell your friend I say hi, if that's not too weird!! 😋

Hahahaha oh I wish, imagine that!! Forums decluttering club 😝 

Inspection is on Thursday again, I'm trying to work out the 'problem areas' to focus on at this point. Garden is a big one 😅 But mainly cos I believe in overgrown yard supremacy!! It means lots of insects and is better for the environment. Alas, I have to adhere to landlord standards instead of doing right by the local bugs 😑

For me, anything above 25 is 'hot'!! Dunno how you enjoy being all sweaty and unable to cool down by removing a jumper!! Blech 🤣

Have a nice time with your friend tonight hun, and hope the weather is glorious for your lil tour tomorrow!! ☀️🤞💜

[Captain24]

She said hi back! 😂 @Jynx 

Yeah I get that but I can’t have overgrown as that means snakes! But I don’t think I would anyway. But I get you and it’s hard when things don’t align. I use to have my house perfect but that’s not what they are looking for, they just want to see any damage. Maybe you might get to sort ‘that room’

I absolutely love the heat and I don’t get how cold can feel good. It gets really cold here. 

Hopefully the weather is nice. It is forecast for rain but I don’t think we will get much if any at all. 

Guess what!!!!! I feel tired!!! 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 hehe cute!! Hope you two have been having a lovely Saturday so far! 😊

Oh yeah I guess living in the city means snakes really aren't such a concern for me!! But whenever I'm out in the sticks I gotta get my stomp on haha - I remember merrily frolicking freely in long grass when I visited Ireland cos there's no snakes there!!

For record I don't like being cold, it's more that I find it easier to guard against - I can snuggle up in layers, put on gloves and a beanie, and wear heaps of oversized hoodies in the winter. In the summer there's only so many layers I can take off before I'd be arrested 🤣

I used to live in Canberra, which is notorious for its cold winters - regularly gets below 0 but rarely snows. It was my first experience really of it being so cold that it's painful! Like you actually can't leave the house without gloves or your hands will start to ache!

Wow, tiredness yay!! I hope you were able to catch some solid snoozles last night hehe 😊💜

[Captain24]

We are, it’s been really good but I’m feeling exhausted by being around someone and I think my energy is slipping. @Jynx. So is my mood and we were just about to go to the markets but a storm has just hit and I’m guessing they will be packing up. 

I get the getting arrested bit. It made me laugh. I’m happy to be hot and sweaty. Instead of shivering! 

Yuck.. Canberra.. that place would be miserable. 

I did get some sleep finally. Which is good for my body but I’m really slipping and I’m scared. 

How was your day? 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 totally makes sense when you're used to being alone - have you been able to communicate this to your friend? Whenever I'm with my family I often get the same kind of weariness, particularly by late arvo. Very grateful most of them like taking naps around this time 😅 Maybe you could request a bit of downtime each arvo just to help recharge your batteries? 

Nah hot n sweaty is a sensory nightmare to me!! It's also why I struggle to put on moisturiser - I hate feeling sticky!! 

Canberra is... interesting 😂 Weirdly small-town vibes for such a big city. I wouldn't go there for an active social life, but the area around it made for really great hiking/nature exploration. I actually didn't mind it 😋

Scared can be good sometimes - especially if it means we're not taking risks, which can be really good for dealing with mania. 

Day has been pretty chill so far. Got a little bit of a storm, but not as much thunder as I would've liked! Sun is back out now but it's cooled down heaps which I'm very grateful for!!

[Captain24]

I can’t be rude @Jynx. We were suppose to go to the markets but it rained. So we sat in our phones for a little while. Just went into town to get dinner. I’m enjoying her being here but it’s hard. I love her to death though and wouldn’t change it, if that makes sense. I’m tired and exhausted. 

I can cope with sweaty but not the sweaty that comes with moisturiser or the feel of it at all. I take the sweat because I love the heat if that makes sense. 

Im guessing it is surrounded by bushland and I can see you loving that! You would have seen some amazing things. 

Yeah I guess scared is good, it just feels like I’m losing the mania. I’m so tired and exhausted and don’t want to do anything. After the way I have been and being flat out constantly it’s disappointing. I’m feeling really flat and low. 

Glad is been a chill day. I love storms. It was only 31 here today but when the rain came it dropped to 21 within half and hour. 

[Jynx]

@Captain24 I can promise you 100% that asking for some space is not rude. However, I know for some it can set off feelings of rejection, especially if we have that abandonment wound. You could always gauge their response by bringing it up in a more removed way, e.g. "How do you feel when people ask for a bit of space? Is it something you struggle with?" 

It sounds like you're still getting a lot out of the visit, even if you're feeling a bit depleted. Happy for you to get to share this time together 😊

Yeah I think that's a pretty normal part of the 'cycle' hey, the highs/agitation/energy of the mania followed by a crash. Small silver lining is that perhaps you'll be able to catch up on a bit of sleep! Here's hoping 😉

Got a full day ahead tomorrow? How long is your friend staying, till tomorrow or Monday?