I can’t cope

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

I just read your post about your auntie. She sounds so unwell. I really hope things improve for her....soon.

Do you think she's so unwell and that's why she can't accept she has a MI?

Right now, kiddos are in bed. Hope you're okay. Will catch you when I'm back.

Takre care

[Captain24]

Thanks for checking in @tyme 

I wasn’t sure you would after the emails. Not comfortable being on here but wanted to reply. 

My auntie says we are twins and she has bipolar as well. Not the same!! She won’t get any help when she gets out so she will never change. 

Im not ok but it doesn’t matter. 

Im glad they are in bed. 

I was planning to jump on quickly after my GP appointment tomorrow as I told you I would update you

Hope it’s going ok 

[tyme]

Heya @Captain24 ,

I haven't been checking any emails or anything. I just jump on here and there when I can before I'm pulled away. 

Was there anything in particular you wanted me to respond to? I can have a look maybe Thursday when I have more time.

There's an indoor pool and spas here so I've been spending most of the mornings there so my BIL can work and my sister and sort everything, cook, tidy, shop etc.

I said we team tag and I refuse the kids' wake up shift because they wake when it's still dark!

So for now, my BIL does the morning/breakfast and overnight toilet shifts, I do the morning and evening recreation shifts, and my sister does the lunch and after lunch shift.

And, I didn't bring any sticky notes! So I don't know what I'm doing here lol.

It's interesting your auntie said that you are 'twins'. Does that mean she is slowly accepting that she has a MH condition?

Anyway, rest up, and I'll rest your message tomorrow once you have your appt. 

take care

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme.

Wasnt it you that sent me the email Sunday night? 

Im glad you have your days planned with out sticky notes. 

So im vitamin D deficient, iron deficient and have to do a bowel screening test and I’m not to take any form of hormones until I see a gyno for a biopsy of the polyp. Hormones will increase the risk that it’s cancer. 

Im going to bed as I have a really bad cold and I’m on nightshift tonight and tomorrow night

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 ,

I wasn't online on Sunday. So no but I can have a look tomorrow.

How are you feeling about the whole thing if your health? Sounds sorta scary, but then again, as you mentioned before, if it happens, it happens. 

Makes sense about the hormone stuff. And with Vitamin D, the doctors don't even test it in Melb anymore because everyone is Vitamin D deficit here. And iron? I have serious deficients there too. Do you feel tired?

Anyway, I'm going to put the kids to bed. I'll speak to you soon.

[Captain24]

It’s all good. It just sounded like you @tyme 

Im not sure how I feel actually. I’m not as confident as I was. He actually scared me. I guess it’s just a wait and see and deal with whatever the outcome is. 

I do feel tired all the time but I just figure it’s shift work, meds and MH. There is a lot of reasons why I’m tired so I guess I’ll get the script filled and see what happens. I have to have the bowel screening test as he wants to know why I’m deficient. 

Im just about to go to bed. I have a really bad cold and coughing heaps and nightshift really took it out of me and I’ve got another one to go. Roll on Friday morning! 

[Captain24]

I read my referral today and it scares me @tyme. Waiting for the Gyno to get back to me with an appointment. I just want a date so I know when I’m going and able to ask questions. 

I really hope the trip is going well

[tyme]

Hey @Captain24 !

Your feelings are so valid. I hear all the stress this is causing. It's no small thing. I'm thinking that the referral sort of made the situation 'real-er'?

Did they say the gyno appt was urgent? Or is there a long wait?

I returned late morning today. The kids wanted to stay another two nights, but we didn't. I think it was enough. It was really cold this time, so it was harder to spend time outdoors like we usually do. Usually, we can sit in camp chairs outside, but it was honestly too cold this time.

Do you have anything on tomorrow?

[Captain24]

Hey @tyme 

Im sorry it was so cold for you all. The cold kinda ruins everything. At least you are home now and in your creature comforts. No sharing tent space or sharing showers! 

I just put the referral on the bench and don’t look at it. I didn’t realise I was suppose to get the receptionist to fax it off. So I called today about an appointment but they obviously didn’t have the referral. Then I looked at it and read it. It sounds kinda urgent. In italics it said the polyp has a feeding tube. Plus it mention my iron deficiency. It all sounds a lot. My biggest fear is am I going to need to take time off work? How do I pay for my house? How do I afford to live? How do I afford meds? How do I afford support when I’ll need it the most? 

I’m not sure how long the wait is and whether I have to travel 2 hours to see him or how often he visits here, if he still does. 

I still feel sick so I don’t plan on doing much tomorrow other than getting to the supermarket when it opens to do some shopping before the thousands of people descend on the main streets. There will be no leaving my house until we go out for dinner Sunday to a packed pub for dad’s birthday. 

[tyme]

It is another event in your town? It sounds like that's how the town makes its money! 

@Captain24 

Wow. It certainly sounds like the referral was a lot to take in. 

So for tomorrow, you've got the shops early, and then? Cleaning? Lawns? Dogs?

Is your dad's bday dinner this coming Sunday?