I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Yeah. It’s a breed thing. @tyme. Pix doesn’t worry me but Angel was so sick with her heart failure that it was just something else failing. Jett is a concern though. I’ll just watch him and see how it all plays out. 

I told my psych that I was scared if the appointment today after the end result of the last one and I was scared that she would judge me for all I blurted out last time. I feel really comfortable with her. I have to try and juggle getting to her other practice when I’m in hospital. It’s 20 minutes away and I’d have to Uber it. I’d like to see her in person though. 

It is tough. I need those days off though to recuperate from the work demands of the block. We all do. But yes to be juggling it all is tough. It’s like I’m going full steam then nothing. Meds is a hard one too. But I need the job so I need to work with it. Before my MH was so bad it was quite easy to get with the flow of it all. 

I think I do do well. I don’t call in sick very often I just get on with it. I’m not saying I don’t struggle deeply with it but I can do it. I think you would do it but I’m not sure how you would cope with the downtime. 

Yes after 62.5 hours in 5 days, day and night shifts, I do need rest! 

[tyme]

I just realised the time! I'm going to clock off now, and will see you next time @Captain24 

Take care. Will be thinking about you.

[Captain24]

I just pushed myself and focused on one thing at a time. @AuntGlow. I couldn’t do it all at once so I just did each thing as it popped up. I don’t know how I calmed myself enough to do it. I was agreeing a lot while going for it. 

I did reward myself with a hot shower, new pj’s and a hot chocolate. Just waiting for the dishwasher to finish’s and then I’m going to bed. 4:30 tomorrow morning is going to come around real fast. 

[Captain24]

Thank you for tonight. It was an awesome chat and so nice to catch up. I’ll be home at 8 tomorrow night if you’re around @tyme 

[AuntGlow]

One thing at a time seems so simple, but it can be really tricky when our mind is busy! So I think it's great that you had this experience to remind you of how helpful slowing down can be. @Captain24 

Aw that sounds really lovely - what is on your pj's? ✨

I hope you get some good rest! I will be back tomorrow. 

[Captain24]

Just clouds and a top that says sweet dreams. They are from Oodie. I’m liking them so I might order some more. I need pj’s for hospital. @AuntGlow 

Slowing down helped so much. 

I’ll be at work so I won’t be around until just before 8 tomorrow night. 

[AuntGlow]

Hello @Captain24, 

Hoping work is going well for you today. Will be here when you are finished if you'd like to chat. 

Your PJ's sound very cute! 

When will you be going into hospital again? I will note it down. 💛

[tyme]

Elllo @Captain24 , I'm going to be on the Webinar tonight until about 8:15/8:30. I'll see you after... maybe after your hot hot shower? It's soooooo cold here! I reckon it's going to hail soon. The cold is biting into my bones!

[Captain24]

Work was pretty busy in the middle of the day so that time went quickly. @AuntGlow 

I go in on the 4th of August so this time in 4 weeks I’ll be there. 

[Captain24]

I just got home and I’m headed to the shower @tyme. It’s not really cold here it’s 6 degrees. 

We had hail on Monday some areas around here got heaps. It looked like snow. 

I hate when the cold bites. It did that this morning.