I can’t cope

[Captain24]

Hi @TunedIn 

Work hasn’t been great. But I guess it keeps a roof over my head. 

Thanks. I did think the ability to talk a little but it doesn’t matter. I totally get that this is not the place for it. Thanks for recognising the courage but I really don’t think I am able to put myself out there again. I have never shared so much in one go, not even with my psych so that says how big that post was. 

[Captain24]

I’m in bed and just can’t get out. I did get up and feed the dogs lunch though and just came straight back. Lots of thoughts running around in my head. So much stuff to do but just can’t. 

Feeling really alone and isolated. It would just be nice if someone tried to call or acknowledge me in some way. I probably wouldn’t respond as I don’t have the capacity but it would still be nice 

[Captain24]

 

[rav3n]

hey @Captain24 hearing that you're feeling pretty exhausted at the moment. do continue to be gentle with yourself and let us know if there's anything we do to support you 💙

[Captain24]

So much noise in my head and I can’t quieten it down. @rav3n. It’s just really loud. I guess there isn’t anything anyone can do so I just shouldn’t be here as it’s not positive. 

[rav3n]

it's okay not to be positive! @Captain24 recovery-focused posting isn't about being positive, but rather letting the community know that you're working on staying safe.

i'm really sorry to hear that the thoughts are loud at the moment, i can see how that would be scary. what's something you can do now to help keep yourself safe? whether it's cuddling pix and jett, or watching your comfort show, or texting a friend/helpline?

[AuntGlow]

Good evening @Captain24, 

I am glad you have a few days off to yourself to recalibrate. It sounds like finding some ways to connect throughout that time might be helpful. I wonder what that could look like? 🥰

I was referring to work in my last message, but please tag me in the post you are referring to. I want to make sure I am not missing anything important. 🫶

[Captain24]

I’m safe @rav3n. I do have a lot of thoughts but no intention to act on anything. I’m about to feed the dogs so that will make Pix happy. I just watch the Ted talk that Oddsidian put up and that has helped me a little tonight. I don’t need to do everything before I go down to my psych tomorrow just what I need for the day. It hasn’t stopped the noise but it has reduced my anxiety. 

[Captain24]

Hey @AuntGlow 

I slept all day today. So that’s one day off that has passed. I go to see my psych tomorrow but have allowed time to spend an hour or so sitting at the beach and walking along the waters edge to unwind. That’s another day done. It’ll be a big day as I’m planning on leaving at 5:30am and won’t get home until around 7 depending on traffic. Wednesday I have to mow the lawns, bath the dogs and change all my bed linen. Thursday I have to clean the house go food shopping and prep lunches for work and then back to work on Friday. No downtime in there at all. 

I tagged you. 

Its ok I know you won’t get back to me until late tonight or sometime tomorrow. 

I hope you are going ok and working through your uni work 

[rav3n]

@Captain24 glad to know you're safe at the moment, but i do get that those thoughts can still be exhausting to carry around. has dropping the anchor been helping? or is that something you prefer to do with your psych?

hehe lucky Pix! oo what's the ted talk about? also glad you have the psych appt to look forward to as well, hopefully chatting with her can help with the noise too.